Smoke'N'Pride 4.0

Its usually at night that I find myself here..
Its the most quiet time indeed, more important - its a time when there are'nt many people
out there left to play with.. servers are empty, no one to kill.

so then I find myself sitting, infront of my comp (not now ofcourse since the bitch is dead but in general) wondering around places to find something interesting to get me through the next couple of hours.

Also at night for some reason my thoughts come in English… am I on US time..?!

Hehee.. I guess I shouldve said ahead - it mostly happens when I dont smoke.

No smoke = No sleep (or 4 hours of trying to falling asleep) for Lem

If Lem isnt stoned Lem is Hyperactive,

which isnt too healthy if you have people around you that REALLY want to sleep

Either that or I do have a smoke, but I had a day off and slept most of it
That, sadly, is not the case!!

So I sit here at night, wonder around as I said.. mostly reading lots of useless shit
til theres a light out and i go pretend to sleep for an hour
And I look for something interesting to do, read, think
but what I find time after time are people. People I didnt think I would.
interesting people

I dont talk to them - come on you know me better. I Feeeeel them out there
I know Im here, and I feel all those people that are now connected.
Logged in souls..
Trying to connect ( קצת קיטש לפנים) in this world
To get their mails, to read their news, find love (Ew ew ew), kill people, write…
Sometimes I can actually feel a person, really feel them.
And thats the thing I love the most

This post has no point, in case you were wondering
Just some thoughts.
Goodnight, to all of you out there

Suddenly theres no picture anymore, only a question mark, no link - nothing.
I had to know this day would come, we were indeed "in touch" for too long..

See I have a friend, an actual friend not i-never-met-her-but-she’s-my-friend type of friend.. a real life
dutch friend that goes away every now and then.
She doesn't want to go, or at least thats what she says
But sometimes he makes her. Sometimes he gets upset.
Last I heard even seeing my name was enough (see, he thought I ruined his life).
First no gaming, then ban the MSN, not this not that… cuz he is the man.
And as long as the man is - god bless him - around, the little wife
must not make a sound (easy to say when you weigh 300 pounds).

But maybe its not me.. I hope it’s not me, or anyone else, I hope its over.
Maybe this time she did have enough and just wanted to go, I dont know.
I just hope she’s ok, and all is good.
I hope theres no hiding, hope theres no running away, hope no-one is hitting anyone,
hope the kids are ok.
I hope she'll pop up again in a month or so, or maybe even come and play a little,
so I can say hello.

יש דברים שקורים רק בתל אביב..
למי שלא מכיר, הרשימה, מתורגמת לאנגלית..

***English post***

…finally, and that too isnt really in English, it’s translated.
I came across this famous list today, and thought Hmmm maybe I'll translate it for my friends out there…

1. Only in Tel Aviv you have to pay city taxes even if you live on a bench




2. Only in Medina square you can see people walking in Armani suits, and poop in their hands




3. Only in Tel Aviv 3 year old children can say Passiflora - Passion Flower




4. Only in Tel Aviv a squared building and a rectangle building considered a wonder




5. Only in Tel Aviv you go on a crazy roller coaster at a theme park, but fear bombings




6. Only in Tel Aviv city hall closes at 14:00 but your car can get towed at 2am




7. Only in Tel Aviv drugs are easier to find than a parking space




8. Only in Tel Aviv you stand an hour in the rain just to get into a club that til yesterday was a garage




9. Only in Tel Aviv people don't have a car because of traffic and lack of parking, but won't go on the bus because of bombings and mugging




10. Only people in Tel Aviv still think someday they can go swim in the Yarkon again




11. Only in Tel Aviv a tiny apartment, over populating, and air pollution are considered "High quality living" ..Right




12. Only in Tel Aviv you can see Jerusalems (Yes, I have invented a word…) happy




13. Only in Tel Aviv its easier to find whole whit bread with blueberries than plain bread




14. Only in Tel Aviv you people will look at a missing persons photo, and laugh at what
    they wear




15. Only in Tel Aviv the Electric garden has no electricity, the Dolphinarium has no
    Dolphins, and the Hope neighborhood has no hope




16. Only in Tel Aviv Shimon Peres has been winning the elections for the last 20 years




17. Only people who live in Jafa still think they're a part of Tel Aviv

And now, just for the fun of it, some pictures of out beloved city
Because we do love it… with all thats said up there, this is our NY, it is the center - where everything happens.

* All the pictures brought to you from the site Tel Aviv in Focus

I was late for my class today…
It may be weird, but that class was supposed to be my high-point of the day.
Its a math class, 3 straight hours of math, trig today, and I still consider it the high-point.

In a few hours I'll have to go off to work.
That would be my low point.. an 8 hours long low point.

The teacher didn't let me in, said I was too late (7 mins) so I can't come in.
I was in shock.
Went to the offices, there they said its ok, he decides, and if it bothers him theres nothing they can do about it. Doesn't matter that I'm paying for it, doesn't matter I was late because of the traffic jam at the schools entrance,
doesn't matter that we're not in high school anymore and some of us have to schedule ourselves around work to get there.

I went home.
So now I sit here, shocked, pissed off, on the verge of a nervous breakdown as far as I'm concerned.
All because of those 7 minutes..
Because of those 7 minutes I have time to dwell on how much I can't handle doing my job anymore,
because I don't care anymore, and after almost a week of not being there I have no idea how Id get through another shift.
Because of those 7 minutes now I have extra 3 hours of reading the news, which does not help…
Our ex-scum-rapist-lying-president is now going to France, all costs paid by tax payers of course.
Normal people are not allowed to leave the country, but not him. He is special.
Disgrace.
Instead of locking him behind bars we are giving him a vacation.

Another old helpless lady was attacked by someone who thought he could get her money.
He walked out with 300 shekels. Such a big man.
Our prime minister still does not care about all the old people in this country,
all the holocaust survivors who cant buy food for themselves, or medication..
they have to choose.
Along with those still hangs the threat of shutting down our internet,
I see it that way and no one would convince me otherwise. Censorship over the internet is the stupidest idea
Ive ever heard, and all under the excuse of protecting the children.
I wonder - do they need parents for anything anymore?
A parent who does not educate his children or does not care what they do,
and with the awful excuse of "I don't know anything about computers" (And that is bullshit. My mom can't deal with comps
and it didn't stop here from sitting next to me when I was 14 for ex. and just look at me chatting… See who I talk to, what I talk about..Its called caring.)
Now days parents seem to think that the education of their children is the job of everyone else but them - then it is easy
to blame everyone else when your child grows up to be stupid, or worse. Its the television, internet, music..
How lucky we are that the ministry of communications is ruled by religious people whos never been on the internet,
don't know how to use it, and find it oh so easy to use "the protection of our children" as an excuse to block it.
Now some people say it’s Ok, but we'll just wait and see how step by step more and more information will be blocked,
how about BREAST Cancer info for a start? Then GAY sites, then maybe sites that publish opinions opposite to them..
tsk tsk.. can't have it. Next block everything on Saturdays.. It is our holly day.. Isn't it?
It is a very dangerous thing to leave that kind of control to a government office,
so open to manipulation (Because we all know how honest politicians are..)…so useless.

This place is getting more and more unbearable by the second (Haven't read the news in 10 minutes,
I'm sure that if I do I'll find something new..) , Education has become a dirty word, so has welfare, kindness…
Worst of all - Freedom.
Our impotent prime minister sickens me, I would say he only talks and does nothing,
but that man can hardly even talk without falling down. Lame.
But again, who is to blame? We are still, as they say, a democracy..
Just like in my previous post.. It’s us.
All those people up there are there because of us, the quality of the "Human material" in the population is
what you see in its representatives.
Makes you wanna cry.

I think I'm done for now, cuz it can just go on and on.
Worst of all - it would lead nowhere.
Thats how it is, until a new generation is up there we are all screwed and left to hope for the best.

Prayers anyone?

Yeah I know it not Sunday…
But my Sunday ain't gonna be slow at all… It' s gonna be shit long
So no more of you stupid questions.

עד כאן.
אבל באמת, זה מה שקורה. יש מה להגיד, לא חסר..
יש גם המון חומר על הכל, וכשיש הרבה מה להגיד, והרבה עם מה לגבות את זה
תשמעו, זה לוקח זמן.

יש איזה עסק משונה או מסריח שנעשה פה, שנראה שהוציא לחופשי מוריד (אם לא אנס) סדרתי, מוזר
מאד, איך ממקרה עם ראיות והוכחות הגענו למקרה עם השערות והתחמקויות.. עוד כמה שנים יעשו על זה סרט.
למרות שעוד כמה שנים לך תדע מה יהיה פה, ואז כבר יעשו בטח סרט על זה, והוא יעשה בחו"ל (כי כאן תהיה מדינת
הלכה, או פשוט חד וחלק - איראנים), ושוב נושא הראשון יידחק לו החוצה בלחישה, או במלים אחרות סצנה 73.

זה גם קצת מבלבל אני חייבת לציין, והרבה מכעיס.
יש כמה חבר'ה שרוצים לסגור לנו את האינטרנט, אחרי שהחליטו שביטול יום שלם בשבוע זה לא מספיק.
והתירוצים שלהם? מזעזע. הכל בהמשך, אחרי הפרסומות…

Nah I'm just kidding, as I said before, its gonna come when I finish it…!
Trying to be serious here people!!!

I do love it.. sitting like this in front of my computer. It’s the middle of the night, almost morning for some people… 4:32.
I'm not even close to being tired and guess what?
I have to wake up in 2 hours for a long long day from which I'll be back only at 22:00 tomorrow evening.

The horror…

I always have so much to say at these hours, so much I never do it, cuz its too much for me to even start organizing a way you might understand.
I just enjoy the peace, I smoke my joint preferably (Oh dark times, dry times..), and I let all thats in my mind run free..

So what now? What do you want to know?
I'm pissed off about most subjects I can think of now, and the others… well theres nothing wrong with them, they're just nice and calm.. reflections of all sorts.
Its fun too sometimes.

Ah well, I'll just say goodnight for now then, and leave you to it.
In the morning (soon enough!) everything will look better, brighter, and the only thing my mind will go back to being - How the hell do I get away from work today

Good night, and good morning

This would be my peace of mind..
Theres something about this language that makes me cool down
Maybe because all day long I read the news, Hebrew words piss me off on a daily basis
Well then it figures.

כל הזין.
מה לעשות שחדשות זה בעברית
אפילו שפה במדינה בכלל מדברים רוסית..

תסלחו לי, כן, אבל מבחינתי אם אתה גר במדינה - אתה דובר את שפת המדינה.
זה לא קשור לסובלנות
זה לא קשור לגזענות.
יש תקופה מסויימת שמקובל שלא תדבר כמו שצריך. יש אנשים זקנים שאני לא מצפה מהם ללמוד שפה חדשה.

לא מקובל עלי בשום פנים ואופן שאנשים צעירים, לא מפגרים, שנמצאים כאן כמה שנים טובות לא ידברו עברית.
לא מקובל עלי שבן אדם שגר בארץ כל החיים שלו ידבר רק ערבית. לא עברית, לא אנגלית - ערבית.
אולי לא "לא מקובל" אבל זו חוצפה ממדרגה ראשונה.
אני לא מבינה למה צריך להיות שירות טלפוני בחמש שפות.
יש מדינה? יש לה שפה רשמית? יופי.
נוסיף לזה שפה בינלאומית אחת, וזהו.

עוד מעט יהיה שירות גם בתאי, או פיליפינית, למה לא? גם מהם יש הרבה עכשיו.
אבל מה? התאילנדים והפיליפינים יודעים גם אנגלית וגם עברית יותר טוב מהרוסים והערבים אצלנו!

המדינה הזו היא מדינה של כפויי טובה, מושחתים, אנשים שחיים בהרגשה שמגיע להם הכל, ולא רק זה -
שמשהו שמגיע להם נלקח ברגע זה ממש - כמעט בכל רגע נתון.
אייייייייייייייייכס

I saw this Ultimate Lesbian Survey in Livejournal and I had so much fun answering it that I wanted to post in here
Lucky you..

** אזהרה לכל הנוגעים בדבר - פוסט יחסית ארוך, ובאנגלית - תתמודדו **

1. Are you sure of your sexual orientation? Or are you confused?:
Pretty damn sure..

2. Are you open with your sexuality? Or is it a secret?:
Pretty open.. If someone asks I'll answer it, or I say things like "me and my gf..",
but wont go to people saying "hey, I'm gay" (nice rhyme though)

3. Who was the 1st person you told that you're a lesbian?:
Ummm don't really remember "coming out" to anyone..Squaredevil was the first I talked to about those feelings,
then my best friend Marti, but I really didn't feel any need to specially inform anyone of that.

4. Is your hair short, medium, or long?:
Long

5. Would you ever shave your head?:
Nah.. Thought about it back when I had short hair, I know it would fit, but the growing-it-back part is going to look awful
- so no.

6. Do you own anything with the Gay Rainbow on it?:
Ooh well after this last Pride Parade I own a cool pride tie, and a flag.. I think thats it..

7. Do you consider yourself a Stud, Androgynous, or Femme?:
Well Im not that girlie.. Not that butch either.. Does Tomboy count?

8. What type of females are you most attracted to?:
Mmmm I love them strong, I love seeing the power in their eyes.. The eyes would usually be blue, light colored hair at most. Must have toned body, even if theres some fat on it I can see if you have some muscles under there or not, and the body shape of a person who works out.. mmm to drool.. She wouldnt be a Femme, more of a Tomboy like moi.
I used to define all of that as "Ice Bitch"

9. What FAMOUS Lesbian is your favorite?:
Katherine Moening

10. Do you like watching The L Word?:
I do, but they get worse as the seasons go by..

11. What is your favorite lesbian movie?:
Dont think Ive seen one which is that good yet..

12. Do you have any Pride tattoo’s?, if not, would you ever get one?:
No pride tattoos, just a regular one, tribal, and if I get more tattoos they would probably be along that line.
No pride tattoos for me

13. Do you go to Gay/Lesbian clubs?:
Sure, if I go out I usually go to something like that. Ofcourse I go out once a month or 2 (pathetic) so I dont know if that counts.

14. Would you ever be a Drag King? (If you're not already):
lol I can try.. I look good in a tie

15. What name would you go by if you did do Drag?:
Lem the mighty…?

16. Have you ever been mistaken for a Male?:
Hehe when I was a kid I was mistaken for a boy… but it’s been a really really long time since I was last mistaken for one

17. Would you ever have a sex change to become a Male?:
Thought about it, but love being a woman too much. Besides, all those hot lesbians wont like me if Im a male, so what have I accomplished?

18. How do you feel about Homophobia?:
Same as I feel about stupidity

19. How do you feel about Gays/Lesbians having children?:
No different than I feel about heterosexual parents having children. If you'll love them, if you can provide for them, if you feel you can make them happy - go for it.

20. If it were legal, would you marry another Female?:
Sure. Setting aside what I think about marriage in general - of course I would.

21. What FAMOUS lesbian singer do you like the most?
Sarah Bettens ( K’s Choice)

22. Have you ever attended a Gay Pride Festival?:
Every year, even before I knew I was gay.

23. Do you wear make-up?:
Nonono

24. Do you carry a wallet?, or a purse?:
Nope.. I either have my backpack for school\work, or I take my c.c and my driver license from my wallet and put them in my pocket. Hate carrying around stuff, thats what pockets are for

25. Do you wear Male clothes?:
Hehe just give them to me. If you have it in my size I'll take it! Give me baseball shirts, ties, jackets, suites, always loved them. I actually hate womens clothing (atleast the version of it here - pink fluffy yucky things)

26. Do you prefer wearing cologne instead of perfume?:
No real preference – whatever smells good. I go with perfume mostly but thats because Male perfumes (yeah cologne cologne) don't smell that good on me.. I'm left with sniffing them from whoever comes around

27. Do you have several piercings & tattoo’s?:
Used to have 6 piercings, now none, and one tattoo - hopefully more to come

28. Do you have a crush on a female celebrity, if so, who?:
Eh not really.. Maybe the mom from Heroes (Strong Icy blond - just the way I like em), and Jennifer Connely

29. How did your parents handle you telling them about your orientation?:
They didn't care much, they are good that way. My mom smiled and my dad didn't really say much about it. They're totally fine with it.

30. Do you have more Gay/Lesbian/Bi friends than you do Straight friends?:
Nope. Got about the same amount (and thats only cuz more and more "straight" friends of mine find out they're gay in the last few years)

31. Have you ever been gay bashed?:
Nope

32. Did anyone stop having contact with you after you came out of the closet?:
Hell No

33. What is your favorite gay/lesbian quote?:
“What do you call a lesbian with long fingernails?…SINGLE”

34. Do you believe you were born a lesbian?:
Yes and no. I believe we are all a combination of nature and nurture and it’s hard to break it down
and determine which parts of ourselves come from which element.

35. Are you proud? Or ashamed of your sexuality?:
Very proud.